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Oh go to hell Jolin.(And dont bloody attract attention in the process)
What is the purpose of this shitty blog?
Arent blogs suppose to express one's truest feelings and emotions?
But Why arent I doing it?
Why do I fail in what ought to be such a simple thing?
I am sorry, my dear blog.
I truly am.
What have I been using you for,these past few months?
Used you for telling things that arent really affecting me alot...
What side of me am I showing?
That I am like such a person with a lovely life who loves the world,
a person without any problems,
a girl who love the skies and sun and moon and flowers and birds,
a person who loves herself and everything around,
a motivated person who wants her As badly?
wow.How angelic.
Those missing elements-The things that truly affect me,
Why do I push the things that affect me the most aside and assume everything is ok?
Why?
Am I afraid that the world would know how much of a coward I actually am?
Why do I want to please everyone so much, when I know I hardly can?
Why do I change myself for others?
Why do I make my life so difficult?
Why?
Why do I hide my feelings, and show that I am happy when I am not?
Why am I such a sucker?
Damn.
Oh great.
Why do I love myself at times and hate myself so much at others?
Let me answer all the question marks in this post.
Good luck. I guess its tougher than scoring 9A1s.
And still, I ask myself Why.
Sometimes I feel void of everything,
I feel numbness, nothingness
and I wonder if that is because I am lonely.
Luckily its only that half an hour,
but still half an hour everyday adds up, you see
half an hour everyday, same time same place
That half an hour everyday is always the slowest to pass,
although others think that it passes fast.
You are a great friend in every way,
but sometimes just a little little bit insensitive..
But still, I am glad that its only half an hour,
and that I have you as my friend.
Although there is this feeling of loneliness when you are with that other person.
What is the purpose of this shitty blog?
Arent blogs suppose to express one's truest feelings and emotions?
But Why arent I doing it?
Why do I fail in what ought to be such a simple thing?
I am sorry, my dear blog.
I truly am.
What have I been using you for,these past few months?
Used you for telling things that arent really affecting me alot...
What side of me am I showing?
That I am like such a person with a lovely life who loves the world,
a person without any problems,
a girl who love the skies and sun and moon and flowers and birds,
a person who loves herself and everything around,
a motivated person who wants her As badly?
wow.How angelic.
Those missing elements-The things that truly affect me,
Why do I push the things that affect me the most aside and assume everything is ok?
Why?
Am I afraid that the world would know how much of a coward I actually am?
Why do I want to please everyone so much, when I know I hardly can?
Why do I change myself for others?
Why do I make my life so difficult?
Why?
Why do I hide my feelings, and show that I am happy when I am not?
Why am I such a sucker?
Damn.
Oh great.
Why do I love myself at times and hate myself so much at others?
Let me answer all the question marks in this post.
Good luck. I guess its tougher than scoring 9A1s.
And still, I ask myself Why.
Sometimes I feel void of everything,
I feel numbness, nothingness
and I wonder if that is because I am lonely.
Luckily its only that half an hour,
but still half an hour everyday adds up, you see
half an hour everyday, same time same place
That half an hour everyday is always the slowest to pass,
although others think that it passes fast.
You are a great friend in every way,
but sometimes just a little little bit insensitive..
But still, I am glad that its only half an hour,
and that I have you as my friend.
Although there is this feeling of loneliness when you are with that other person.