Bittersweet

2009-02-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

JC life is something I have to quickly adapt to- The pace is fast, the workload is (quite) overwhelming, the expectations are higher and after PDP starts, I believe it would be mentally draining as well as physically.
Much more so since I got chosen for a sports PDP- floorball and is in the school team.
Went through quite a couple of auditions to get into the team actually.
In fact, tomorrow's the start of the first training.. Heard their training would be quite intensive.
Luck.

Orientation 2009

2009-02-07T19:38:00.018+08:00

The JC1s...

I understand that we're super hot (:

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Kenneth the pro-dancer :D

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Enthusiastic Celeb

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Edmund my bus partner

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Sarah's my best Og1 friend !

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Brenda, Yanlin, Kailin

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Talented Joel

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Ignite the infinite!

Not forgetting our best JC2 OGLs who made our orientation pleasingly sweeeeet...

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Caring ThongKiat :DD

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Pretty Yunjie

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Baby-faced Benjamin

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sweet-voiced Amanda :)

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Grace my bubbly best friend

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Friendly YiXian

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My charming OGLs- Mat, Crystal
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OG1 rules.

Xcion rules.

I can never say I love Xinmin even after 4 years studying there, but I can say, with all my heart and soul, that I love Temasek JC, even if I'd been there only for 5 days.

Orientation was pleasingly sweet, and I thank OG1 and the OGLs for giving me these precious memories.

Love all of you.

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Its never about the school, but the people in it who make the school feel so much like home.

2009-01-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

Perhaps today I've seen reality- The ugly, demonic side of reality.
The deep, sinking sensation has, at last, found its way to me, to tell me mockingly that this is not a dream.
4 more days.
4 more days and it wld be sealed like that forever.
The inexplicable pain of waiting... waiting for something which might cease to exist in the very beginning has returned back to torture my soul.
The world seems so unfriendly suddenly,
releasing that flicker of hope which I naively acknowlege,
that glimpse of heaven which I fervently seek,
only to plunge me down to the endless depth below later to befriend darkness.
Circumstances, although so different, becomes conspicuously, strikingly similar because of the terrible sensation of waiting... helplessly.
For I, hold no power, to decide the fate which is no longer mine.
I lack the conviction that all would be well in the end,
because circumstances have hardened the optimist,
because evidence has let down the idealist,
because really,
reality doesnt work the way miracles do, all the time.
But even though strongly aware,
my consciousness is unwilling,
somewhere deep down in the psyche,
the devil continues whispering, urging- There's hope there's hope.

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Do you know...
Hope is a cruel thing?

2009-01-26T16:32:00.002+08:00

1)Went Henderson Wave Bridge watch sunset with wj.
Now I keep thinking of it.
I want lie there, sing songs and watch sunset with you.

Because
You make every experience such a wonderful one (:

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2) My pet crab died under my care ):
I only had it as a pet for one day. Man.
Didnt even had the chance to feed it food...
Anyway I think it died with its baby.
(Yes, I think it was giving birth)
This is so saddening ):

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3) Decided to go back Xinmin for homecoming this year with Donovan.
Haha Im supporting my bro's booth (beams)
He must be so touched! :O

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4) Sister's scared of the Killer clown cos she's been reading mr midnight.
Its a tough job keeping her calm these few days. ugh.
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5) Hello CNY!
Happy niu year to everyone!
And now I'm going photoshoot.
Haha Credits go to Melvin (:

2009-01-21T21:36:00.002+08:00

Recently...
1) Bought CNY's clothes at Bugis. More than contented with the pieces.

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2) Washed Daddy's car for the first time today! Daddy said I cld be a car
washer given my skills.Yay.

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3) Teaching my bro english is reaally FUN because he knows how to
appreciate my compositions. Hey bro listen up. You've got the first
step to reaching your distinction right- The ability to appreciate great
works. Oops.

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4) I proved myself a worrywart over him. He dint ignore me. He's just
very busy and I'm just very free. And at last, stupid me'd started to
grasp this concept. Anyway, much as I dont want the initial feeling to
fade away, now I begin to wonder if its just an 'impulse' infatuation
which would slowly fade away as time goes tick tock.
Whatever.
Time will tell.

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5) Holidays is coming to an end. (Like finally, after what seemed eternity)
Ok, I admit i dont have patience. Cant wait to start schooling agaaain.
Hope I can get into vj. Hope luck stays with me this time. Sigh, must I
always be a luck-repellent? ):

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6) Jalynn Pei Jia Ying, my sis's P2 classmate has somehow formed an
uncanny liking to me and likes (too much) to stick with me. (And hell,
yes, she's the owner of the 30 missed calls and the calls are still
coming strong) I dont mind anyth bout her except the calls cos she's
really really (And did I mention, really? ) cute.

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7) I've made 3 friends this month/year, Shen Hao, Bon Koh and
WeiChen. And I'm wondering how many more close friends I can
afford to make. Or lose.

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8) Ending my post with a piece of advice for all:
You can't buy love, yet you can pay heavily for it.
I've seen so many alr...

2009-01-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

NEVER never( and I repeat NEVER) give your handphone number to a primary school kid.
Ahhhh. Gee.This is smth I must learn from now on.
Today I had 30 missed calls from my sis's p2 friend.
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I super regret giving her my handphone number la.
(Big sigh)
Why doesnt she stop trying to get me on the phone?
Even when I called back (twice) to tell her I'm busy and msged her a couple of times too.
My gosh.
Help?
I think I'd better switch off my phone /:

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Oh anyway I just found out that theres a 405 outing on 29th too, and it clashes with my 6 faith gathering.
Gee.
Dates like to clash, dont they? Heh.
405 shall have their fun, I shall miss out the fun there and kinda get some fun back by going to faith's gathering.
Maaaaan.
I cant have it both ways.
We all cant, at some time or another...
Dont you agree? (:

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I shld reaally have some patience,
and play it cool like you.
But it gets very irritating sometimes...
because you know you can get it if you wanted it by not waiting.
But you choose to wait.
Because then, you will be seen as the obvious winner.
But the title comes with a price.
like everything else.
Everything comes with a price.
Wait and wait and wait like its never-ending.
And maybe it is.
Its karma its karma I know it.
Karma's gnna come back someday.

2009-01-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

Whooooooooo-
I had so much fun today.
Met my 6 faith classmates and theyre so lovable.
Awww.
Went for breakfast at KFC then caught a movie.
These guys are awesome maaan.
Cant wait for 29th jan! When we meet again...
I'll get someone to accompany there then.
Any guys interested?
My handsome friend Koh Bon? Heh.

2009-01-15T19:07:00.003+08:00

Choices really suck. But I guess having no choice is just as sucky.
(Not that I have a choice to choose IF I had a choice anyway.)
But seriously! I hate myself for being so indecisive. ugh ugh ugh.
I feel I should just go for National JC-First choice.
Victoria is such a risk, my heart wont be able to take it :/
Daddy said NJC is an 'ulu ulu' place but when I got there, I realised that its an acceptable environment and... much to my surprise... I like it.
SO..
National JC it is.
Just let me get into it successfully.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

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You wont need hope if you have faith.
Too bad I dont have faith /:

2009-01-12T22:49:00.001+08:00

O level results are out.
My L1R5 is 5 after deduction.
RAWRRRRRRRR.
It should be better :/

2008-12-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

I just realised, yesterday, that my O level results are coming out in 10 days time.
Worry took its place as the dominant emotion, and the other feelings fade into insignificance.
The what ifs began flooding into my mind.

What if I dont want to hear the truth anymore?
What if Ideal just didnt have its place in my world?

What if we couldnt be friends?
The thought is impossibly painful, somehow.

2008-12-29T23:29:00.016+08:00

Strawberry kisses from Cold-rea. 韩国，寒国。

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With that smile, I know you cant imagine how icy cold the weather is.

It -7 degrees.

And for your information, thats cold.
The drink we bought then turned into ice (=___=)

And suddenly,

I found myself wondering what the freezing temperature for blood is.

And I panicked like a dumb kitten.

Anyway I'm not uploading the pictures now

(took thousands of pictures in Cold-rea)

Smiling like that in the more than freezing cold weather really takes power.

haaaa.

Its late now,

and my computer's tired.

So goodnight (:

The Korea experience shall have to wait for another time.

2008-12-14T14:44:00.002+08:00

2 more days to Korea.
Thats something I just realised.
Cool.
I think I cant wait.
But then again...
the pleasure of waiting
(for something you know would come when the time ripes)
is just gorgeous.
(beams)
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Oh oh and I so love Jacob Black now.
He seems so alive,
thanks to my great imagination skills.

You wait and see.
I'll make reality and ideal become friends.
I'll dope them with the love potion
I'll make them hold each other's hands and walk down the friendship lane.
But first,
I'll have to seek out ideal.
Its forte is hide-and-seek.
But you wait and see,
I'll find it and I'll hug it and
as soon as I do, I wont let it be out of my sight
ever again.

2008-12-02T10:37:00.002+08:00

Going to Far East later with bestest (:
I'm bored and thus, I'm posting this random post,
because it makes me happy- My fingers like typing :DD
Oh and Irene mentioned (on her blog) that I can be the sexiest girl if I dress up, and shes gnna woo me if I dont mind.
W-h-o-a-h. Not that its true, but still, I'm flattered. haha!
And suddenly I realise that I do miss her alot.
Ah! Shall send her a msg now.
Bye blog.
I hope my company has put a smile on your face (:

2008-12-02T10:33:00.003+08:00

2008-12-01T21:58:00.002+08:00

Sat.
URA centre with Weijie in the morning.
He spent half his precious day with a cranky and sulky me who kept throwing tantrums.
Poor him ):
But its not my fault, its my backache's.
I really was getting on his nerves.
So to get even with me, he started taking unglam pictures of me.
Poor me ):
Poor us ):
And he's tired bcos he slept late, so a kind-hearted me gave him shoulder massage. I seriously think he's sarcastic when he says its nice.
But anyway, its the thought that counts.
And then we both started craving Anderson's Ice cream and he offered to treat again.
But I have to meet Si Yun at Bugis then and thats too bad for me.
So the next half of the day was shopping at Bugis.
Introduced her to Tori-Q, and she liked it :D
Ate at Pasta Mania, shopped.
Bought something so cool I'm not gonna say what it is (:
Cool, unique and well, cheap. (Thats like so me) haha.
I enjoyed talking to her so much that, after she send me home, i sent her back to her house. Lol.
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Sun
Sun was greaaat.
I finished 5 big chapters on New Moon :D
I'd forgotten what I did on the remaining part of the day.
Hmm.
But anyway, thats not the point.
I'm starting to love Edward and Jacob all over again.
Edward is caring, rich, gorgeous, sweet and so very perfect.
Jacob is amiable, warm, rebellious, boyish and so very hot.
Its hard to choose between the two. ha.
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Mon
Happy friendship day, bestest (:
Rmb our date tmr, elaine!
Ok, today was cool.
My backache soothed a little.
Spent the day doing math-
Mathematic Induction, Sequences and series, A.P. and G.P.
Decided against going to the doctor's.
I hope it was the right decision...
eek.
Oh oh, and I bought this book for English GP and I had still not gotten over the fact that A level composition wld not consist of narratives.
urgh.

2008-12-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

If you play my game, you stick to the rules.
If you dont, you're out.
If you're unhappy, you quit.
I'm not starting a relationship, but that doesnt mean I'll miss out the fun.
So heed my advice.
Give the pretty girl who loves you wholeheartedly another chance ok?
She's- in so many tangible ways- better than I am.
Quit my game.
Spare yourself the agony.
Quit,
before you get eliminated.

2008-11-25T20:46:00.001+08:00

Life would be perfect if my back wasnt aching so bad.

2008-11-25T20:24:00.002+08:00

Started reading through Twilight another time.
My target is to finish it and New Moon by this holidays (:
The other two will have to wait for some other time I guess.

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It was not until today that I realised the vital part that was missing in my now fixed routine. I knew I was uncomfortable with this routine, although I couldnt find what the cause of it was. Then today, Daddy taught me Mathematic Induction, an altogether new and alien A level Amath topic.

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And I realised the vital thing that was missing was- Studying.

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When Daddy gave me an introduction on that topic, I felt great, wonderful, happy. Happier than I could ever have been on any outing, because I knew that the day was productive.
So,
I decided to have a goal for this holidays.
I wanted to learn, because then, I would feel richer.
Richer with knowledge.
I needed to learn.
I craved for knowledge, something new, something I dont know of.

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Perhaps it is somehow ingrained in my mind that I must spend the day, fruitful.
No wonder the half month I had spent had been so...uneasy, uncomfortable.
So I'm starting tomorrow.
I want the routine I've so gotten used to, back.
I want that type of routine.
Because it makes me happy.
And I only do things to make myself happy.
Ha, I'm a hopeless nerd (:

2008-11-23T11:09:00.002+08:00

So I ask myself now.
Am I happy? No.
And when I thought you could be helpful to ease some of my problems, here comes you to give me another problem.
I'm so disappointed, dom.
I'm so angry and upset with you.
I had a terrible night yesterday, so thanks (:
I guess I'll have another one tonight.
Teach me how I can tear it apart and pretend nothing happened.
Its impossible.

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Donovan, you make me smile later on our date out yea?
I've had enough of life's crap.
P.S Thanks Elgin.

2008-11-23T11:08:00.002+08:00

Just added a few picts to the post on prom night and the names. So you can browse through them again (:

PROM

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Matthew (:

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Kiang Siang (:

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Teck Guan (:

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Chong Sien (:

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JunSheng (:

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Seow Koon (:

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Marcus (:

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Ctb (:

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Kia Chuan (:

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Mr Tang (:

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Kiat Han (:

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Enwei, Ruby, Xinyu (:

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Limin (:

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Teddy (:

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Josie (:

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Douglas (:

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Xingzi (:

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Michelle (:

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Weiyeat (:

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Mr Foo (:

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Angie (:

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Mr Ang (:

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Angeline (:

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Isaiah (:

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Andrea (: He's so nice on that day, helped me peel my prawns (:

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WanTing (:

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KaiHong (:

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Yvonne (:
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405 (:
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Desmond (:
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Elgin (: This is my fav pict cos we're both smiling so happily (:

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David (:

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Kenny (:

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Zeyong (:

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Cheryl (: Ahh she looks sweet here.

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Chompu! Prom Queen of the night!
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Post up the other picts another day(:

Its weird, some of the picts I posted up on the posting page did not appear on the blog.

2008-11-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

The Stress is going awaaaaaaay.
Oooh I love this feeling!

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Anyway I got a haircut today and I'm in love with it :D
Its short and niceee.
Tomorrow will be a busy busy busy day again.
Blazer and passport stuff.
Awww man. (eek?)
Oops.

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Happy birthday to you.
Tell me when you want to claim your present (:
Hope you enjoyed your day!

2008-11-16T22:54:00.003+08:00

LIFE. The world today.
George Carlin

The paradox of our time in history is that we have
taller buildings but shorter tempers
wider freeways but narrower viewpoints

We spend more, but have less
We buy more, but enjoy it less

We have bigger houses and smaller families
more conveniences but less time
more degrees but less sense
more knowledge but less judgement
more experts but more problems
more medicine but less wellness

We drink too much
smoke too much
spend too recklessly
laugh too little
drive too fast
get too angry quickly
stay up too late
get up too tired
read too seldom
watch TV too much
and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our posessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life, but not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back,
but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour.
We've conquered outer space, but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've split the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.

We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies than ever, but have less communication.

These are times of fast food and slow digestion;
Tall men and short character
Steep profits and shallow relationships.

These are times of world peace, but domestic warfare
More leisure but less fun
More kinds of food but less nutrition

These are days of two incomes, but more divorce;
Of fancier houses, but broken homes

These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throw away morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer to quiet, to kill.

It is a time when there is too much in the show window and nothing in the stockroom.

2008-11-16T10:04:00.003+08:00

My eyes look weird today.
They look like camel's eyes-Thriple eyelids. Eek.
Hope my normal eyes will return to me after awhile.

Went to cousin's hse ytd and she showed us Disneyland's pictures (:
So fantasy like, I feel like going there tooo. Haha.
Ok I have to prepare to go out now.
Weijie's treating me sushi buffet, yumm.
And then I have a date out with cheryl too.
Byeee blog, dont miss me.

2008-11-14T15:34:00.003+08:00

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I wanna be bored toooo.

Yes I mean it when I said that (Or typed that rather)

Eeek.

Yesterday was a busy busy busy day.

Sent my blazer for dry-cleaning, went to make new passport in the afternoon...

Had a heated row with daddy over the passport issue and I was like not even at fault ok.

Him and his nasty temper ruined the day for me. Thanks ar.

And when I tried to reason, he said I talked back and told me to shut up.

See the problem with adults is that they always have this excuse. (sigh)

And when Mummy agreed that I was right, he scolded her too.

That sucked.

So Mummy and I went shopping at Bugis to 'take revenge'

Thats how mummy put it. (We took Daddy's credit card)

I bought my prom dress and that cheered me up loads(:

Today is stay-home-friday.

Actually thought of going to band camp to visit the juniors but we're having crab for dinner so decided against it.

And today is busy busy busy again....

with household chores.

I made the beds for everyone, swept and mopped the floor, hanged and folded the clothes, did the dishes, went to pick up my lil sis from school..

And read outdated magazines from 2001.

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Ok thats a habit I picked up months ago as a response to those new and expensive magazines.

I wish I have moreeee time alone man.

Dont like busy days.

Which explains why I wanna be bored toooooo.

bah.

P.S Getting bday presents for guys is no easy feat ):

P.P.S I'll rather be a perfect best friend

2008-11-12T11:22:00.002+08:00

Mummy its over!
Ok The o levels are over over over over!
But I dont feel as happy as I ought to feel...
Cos I guess I should be jumping for joy now and I am not.
And the cause of it is the last chem paper 1 I did today.
Sucked to the core. I got bloody 6 qns wrong.
6?!?! Can u believe it. Omg. that means I got 34/40..
And thats a far cry from my O lvl specimen paper 1( which I got full marks)
Roaaaaarrrrrrrr.
How is that possible? ):
I didnt study for the chem specimen paper and I got full marks.
I studied like shit for the real paper and I got shit marks.
Ah well.
Anyway O levels was alright.
BUT.
I screwed up Physics paper 2, HMT paper 1 and Geog paper 2.
So I am seriously praying that the others will be A1 scripts.
They better be.
Fine, enough about the O levels. Im sick and tired of it!

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I made up a list of people I want to go out with cos i miss them aloot.
1) Sharlene
2) Irene
3) Esther
4) Joey
5) Elaine
6) Cheryl
7) Si yun
8) My favourite cuzzies!
9) Kenneth
10) Donovan
11) Dominic
12) Weijie
And as I stare and stare at the list...
I concluded that I will have to save up (:

Going J8 in awhile time. I am like so gonna enjoy life!!

2 more days(:

2008-11-10T10:15:00.000+08:00

Make the last paper a good paper(:

2008-09-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

Meeting homework datelines is terrible. Meeting my own datelines is worse than terrible :/
I've just finished 5 written essays, 3 on hist and 2 on ss and 2 full maths papers BHSS. I've got another english essay to complete, 2 more full maths papers to do, chemistry topical test on 3 heavy chapters to study, daddy's hmwk and my own revision timetable to follow- about 5 more written essays.
All of which are due next week, in other words, tomorrow. (gulps) And if that isnt terrible enough, guess what. Yesterday I did a full maths paper, and completed the planning process for more than 20 hist essays on all the various topics. The day before yesterday was a full day of SS and Hist SBQs of 3 different sch papers plus higher chinese summaries.
And my Physics TYS is newer than new. (unfortunately)
My chem one is just a lil better. 3 chem papers I was supposed to complete and I've done none still..
And crap I'm here blogging.
I think I better go off now.
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2008-09-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

Do all good things come to an end?
Cause it seriously seriously feels like thats the case.
Sigh. Its like my fault again.Always believed that I cld catch up with you soon after my O levels, but I guess I'm wrong.
You said you did not believe in empty relationships. Whats the point?
I'm sry that I did not even try to keep in contact.
Oh
well.
My bad.
Maybe I just have a habit to keep things to myself, keep my problems to myself rather than share them. I dont know ):
Perhaps I place too much emphasis on studying and neglect more than a couple of things.
Anyway, just want to let you know, (if you happen to see this) that I'm happy to know you. Thank you for the wonderful moments you've given me to tresure, and for the so many smiles you've placed on my face.
But, for now...
I guess studying is still first on my list?
Wish I had more time. Sigh

2008-09-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

She was walking the usual route again, this route she had taken with some of her closer guy friends when they had insisted they see her home.
It was her favourite part of the day,
the time she really admire the art of mother nature and sitmultaneously, sorted her thoughts.
Now, she was pondering over what she just saw.
Is it some sort of a prank?
Possibly by one of those rowdy, childish and immature younger students of the school?
She had stopped and looked at it for more than a couple of minutes.
More than a couple of minutes.
Because it said : 27 days.
27 days.
27 days?
She almost dismissed it as a prank at first. Almost.
Maybe that was the right decision all along.
27 days to what?
Doom?
Salvation?
Looking at all the other faces around then, she concluded that none had an answer.
27 days?
That must be a huge joke.
How guillible she was to have actually believed it.
The impact it would have caused, initially.
She scoffed at the whole idea.
She did not need assurance, nope.
Not now,
Not anymore.

2008-09-04T11:08:00.000+08:00

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Ooh. Love this pict. Taken from Debbie's blog (:

Anyway, this is taken on Mr Ang's bday.

Surprised him (Yet again)

Uh well.

Tml retaking higher chinese paper cos I scored a B4.

argh. Anyway, been studying lately so dint really have time to blog.

Watched a couple of movies on TV.

My favourite was 'Tears of the sun'

Its a vry beautiful movie, about the same as hotel Rwanda but more beautiful.

Later going to catch a movie with Wanting and Shinglin, for study purposes, at the same time relax. Been a long time since I caught a movie.

Ms tee encouraged us to watch the movie 'Money not enough'.

Good for writing essays.

Okay, gnna go study a bit more for tml's Hchinese paper.

Today BETTER be productive.

2008-08-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since I went to sentosa.

Anyway,

I just felt like posting the picts for self entertainment.

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Yes I did realise that I'm the shortest.Gasps
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Why do I remind myself of a cat in this pict?
This pict is dedicated to the many people who says that my eyebags are not obvious.

Just LOOK at the pict! Eyebags are hideous ):

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Cherie and me.

My personal favourite picture.

(Because my tan looks greaaat here)
And cherie looks cute (:

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The flashlight was an attempt to make me look fairer.

But can see that I look kind of blinded.

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Ah well.

My L1R5 turned out to be 8 (AFTER deduction of points)

I should have done much much better. Oh well, see there was the un-ideal situation always- the real life situation..

Why be contented with being second when I have all it takes to be the best among the rest? Just a little more effort on my part. Aye.

To the other more disheartened people out there: Let us not be disheartened by our own imperfections but always rise up with fresh courage.

We dont want to wait for a miracle. We work for a miracle. Together.

2008-08-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

Does assurance come with a price?
All I wanted was to assure myself that my essays were on the right track.

Why do I always need assurance from elsewhere? Cant I assure myself the things that I do?
I rmbered smth my father said to me one day before the amaths prelim exams...
I was reading the textbook then.
He told me that I wasnt studying, and that I was just trying to 'buy assurance', to assure myself that hey I could do well bcos I read the Textbook from the first page to the last and not miss out anyth.

He was right, yet again.
That was indeed what I was trying to do.
I am reading the textbook for the sake of reading the textbook.
How dumb.
I guess assurance do really come with a price.
Now I just hope that price isnt too expensive.
sigh.
Its hard to really describe how I'm feeling now.
Its not stress, nope. Oh wait, maybe it is.
Dull, sinking sensation.
A feeling that makes me want to sigh repeatedly.
A feeling that discourages the usual happy me from showing.
A...weird feeling ):
How the little things that add up can make such an impact.
Maybe its the prelims...The amaths and physics results. sigh.

2008-08-08T20:25:00.001+08:00

What Tingwai Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Evaluation?

I am usually the best at everything? (ponders) But I do strive for perfection.True, I value time alone. Lol @ the 'You are very charming...dangerously so.You have the potential to break alot of hearts' I am like seriously flattered haha.O______0 But I agree that I have charm.Dont you think so too? (beams) Lastly, the most impt phrase of the whole thing is....

YOU HAVE THE POWER TO RULE THE WORLD!

Confident, authoritative, agressive?!?! Thats so not me.Thats so Hitler.

But still,I am starting to like my name already(: Long live my name.

2008-08-08T19:39:00.000+08:00

Let patrotism reign.For my Singapore (:

2008-08-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

I just realised theres smth wrong with the date... Today's 4th Aug but on my blog it says 3rd Aug. -_________- Stupid blog lag one day...

2008-08-04T12:10:00.000+08:00

1st Aug: Went to vivocity with elaine, wanted to go to Joey's BBQ at nite
but mum insisted I celebrate her bday.
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2nd Aug: Slacked at home. Watched Resurrection of the Dragon, concluded that Andy lau hasnt lost his charm.
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3rd Aug: Went Changi T3 to study with Dominic. Study date was productive, like always.
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Today: Going sentosa with cherie, Minge and elaine to play...was it beach volleyball? Another one of bestie's weird ideas...
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Argh, having a problem with the links for SS agn. Which made me so fed up, I came to blog instead. Anyway I predicted my ideal results for the prelims.
EL: A2
Emaths: A1
Physics: A1
Geog: A1
C. Humans: A2 (hopefully?)

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I dont want to think abt amaths and chem.
But ok, with these results, plus my mt which is A1 alr, I cld get.....
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(System calculating, pls wait a moment)
L1R5 total : 8
8-4 bonus points= 4
:D !!
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But.. Thats like the ideal situation. Life's always non-ideal, which everyone probably noticed from the case studies of the ideal & non ideal pendulums, transformers etc etc.
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BUT. i dont care. The prelim results BETTER be good, to give me some assurance that my efforts put into crazy studying had nt been wasted. Aye, I need that assurance terribly.
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*Gets agitated*
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You know this O lvl thingy is really getting onto my nerves.
And thus I conclude that

STUDYING FOR O LVLS IS AN ENDOTHERMIC PROCESS
Qn for the day: Calculate the energy loss (in kg/mol) of a typical secondary 4 student studying for the O lvls.
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Suggested formulae:
Energy gained fr slping &eating- Energy loss from activities excluding studying
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Which brings me back to my main point...
The prelim results better be good.(except amaths & chem)
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Case study of amaths had taught me (time and again) not to be the victim of complacency & to adopt the Boxer attitude: I must work harder.
And I shall(must) heed it, this time /:
-Rantings by a mad woman

2008-08-01T09:49:00.001+08:00

Prelims is like OVER.
Somehow I dont feel really happy like I ought to be. gee.
I am like dreading the results luh, esp amaths.
Oh well... ...
Going out with bestest later (:
It'll be fun, like always!

2008-07-25T14:52:00.000+08:00

Hello blogger. I know you must have missed me.
But too bad, the prelims is much much more important(:
Anyway, my house is turning into a garden!
Just look.

Money plant

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Pretty pink flowers(:

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Even have chilli!

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Anyone fancy lime juice?

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All thanks to Daddy and his weird ideas! Some of the plants died because he gave them too much fertilisers. Poor flowers. He's going to build a pond next (LOL) (Evidence-Look at the materials beside the poor wiltered flower above)

I'm going to go with him to choose the fishes and tortoises for the pond now. WOOHOO~ such fun(:

2008-07-09T18:18:00.000+08:00

A bell is no bell

till you ring it,

A song is no song

till you sing it.

And love in your heart is not

put there to stay;

For love is not love,

till you give it away.

2008-06-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

Xinthesis- and I looked like shit that night.(Below's the evidence)

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Haha Seeee.Like shit luh ~!@#$%%^

Ok except the last photo. I love it man...cos thats the only photo I dont look like shit..

And DID I MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE ESTHER AND JOEY?

Ok now I did.

2008-06-19T22:43:00.001+08:00

WHY THIS BLOG SHOULD ROT (a little)

Decided to let this blog rot (a little) since I think it is grabbing alot of attention from me and I've not paid attention to other more important things, like spending more time with my family members etc. Had lots of family time this june hols, cos daddy took a looong leave from work and we went out like every other day,(Yes i mean it) which gave rise to lack of time for studying, which is really kind of bad as i imagine the rest mugging their way through.

WHICH ALSO MEANT I SLACKED D:
SO..
you people pleaseeeeeee dont stop me from studying luuuuuh X.X

Another reason why I think I'm going to let this blog rot is due to the fact that I think my chinese diary can replace this blog.(refer to the second latest entry which is like in may !@#%$)

Chinese.How sentimental it sometimes gets(: Love it man. But I want that red rose notebook from popular to replace my old diary but its always out of stock ):
Geesh.
原来天一直蓝得美丽
原来我不缺新鲜空气
原来窗没打开而已

原来路不是到了尾端
你就在我下一个转弯
带着我走过黑暗

2008-05-29T14:23:00.000+08:00

I feel the urge to buy a new diary book and start writing... in chinese!
Ok what a random thought but the thought of it makes me happy. Must be the influence of the chinese drama serial 9 oclock show every mon to fri channel 8, rhythm of life.The characters all keep chinese diaries.Dont know why, but I seriously love the lee junjie in the show!!! Kinda pissed my brother off haha.

Bro: That lee jun jie is the lee ming shun la
Me: No I dont care lee jun jie is lee jun jie, not lee ming shun! (Refuses to
get the facts right)
Bro: They are the same person
Me: Dont care, they are very different to me. Ahhh I like him alot.
The show gonna finish le...zhe me ban? ):

Thats damn(drags) sad (in a cheery tone)
Ok Cheryl get what I mean here?haha.

我已帮它画上完美的句号, 我喜欢这样的自己(:

2008-05-27T22:13:00.001+08:00

Went town with Elaine today(: We met at 12.30 and shopped till 9.00!
Now my feet ache from heels ): Ohh well... Haha it was fun, like always. Someone even asked us if we were interested in modelling O_______O
Actually we could go on shopping, but time doesnt allow that to happen, so I guess next time. Oh and we took photos(:

Saw this computer at Topman which allows us to take pictures(:

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Closer look.

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Ah hah.We took loads more picts but Elaine dont let me post them ha!

2008-05-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

La~
Oh..
La~
Yay man, i got A1 for CCA (: Well though like alot of people got it, still happy that I got it. Thats 2 points off my L1R5 O level cert. Way to go, Jolin(:

Tmr's a big day. Its chem skill 3 SPA graded assessment. I must not screw it up like the Physics one. Wish me luck!

Colours of the wind.My love

2008-05-12T15:26:00.000+08:00

Jolin's euphoric todaaaay!

Ok what happened in the past few days...

1) I got a new phone!

Let me tell u whats great about this phone.

Its a zero dollar phone (Like Jolin's all other phones)

And its preeeetty!

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2) I bought a new swimsuit!

The good thing bout this is that its pretty, bad thing is it costed me 55 dollars. Its so pretty I camwhored in it.

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The last pict's a digress. But still, its for you(:

Man, and I DO hope msn's working tonight. Reaally wanna talk to you.

2008-05-06T20:39:00.000+08:00

Imagine this.
Its ten minutes to the end of your paper and you have to redo your whole SPA experiment, plus thats the O lvl assessment.What do you do?
I went 'shit'.
My hands started shivering. I recalled my nose having that strong sour feeling(Ok I dont noe how to put in in words but its when u r trying real hard to get those tears back in your throat)
In short-Its terrible. I breathed in, deep. And then my brian went: 'You better finish this shit.'
The experiment took me slightly more than 5 minutes. Plotting the graph took me a mere 2 minutes. (Which, in normal circumstances took me roughly more than 10 minutes, with the title, all the axes, headers, gradient, intercepts, various coordinates and the best fit line in place)
Answering the questions took me another 2 minutes.The key sources of errors were figured out in less than a minute.
What a highly-exciting 10 minutes.I could have drop dead on the floor.
It was crazy. But I did it.
The power of the mind...is beyond comprehension.
I amazed myself today.

2008-05-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

WINNER VS LOSER

The winner always has a program;

The loser always has an excuse.

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The winner always says 'Let me do it for you'

The loser says 'That is not my job'

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The winner always sees an answer in every problem;

The loser see a problem for every answer.

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The winner says 'It may be difficult, but its possible'

The loser says 'It may be possible, but its too difficult'

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When a winner makes a mistake, he says 'I am wrong'

When a loser makes a mistake, he says 'It wasnt my fault'

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A winner makes commitments; A loser makes promises

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Winners have dreams; losers have schemes

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Winner says' I must do something about this'

Loser says 'Something must be done about this'

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Winners are part of the team;

Losers are a part from the team.

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Winners see the gain in every pain;

Losers see the pain in every gain.

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Winners see possibilities;

Losers see problems

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Winners believe in win/win;

Losers believe that for them to win, someone has to lose.

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Winners are like thermostats;

Losers are like thermometers.

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Winners choose what they say;

Losers say what they choose.

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Winners use hard arguments but soft words;

Losers use soft arguments but hard words.

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Winners make things happen;

Losers let things happen.

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I want to be a winner(: Do you?

Special thanks to Zhaozhi and Caijia(:

2008-04-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan ):
Why isnt Msn working?
*Yells*
.
.
.
Damn.
...
The window-We were unable to sign you into Windows Live Messenger at this time. Please try again later.
.
(And boy did I try! After every 2 minutes mind you)
To let us try and troubleshoot the problem, click the troubleshoot button.
(I didnt click, i practically spammed it, screwed it from head to toe)
.
Error code: 80048820(And boy if that wasnt enough)...
Extended error code:80048418
!@#$%^&*!?!

Is it my laptop? My poor old ageing laptop. It must be ancient.
(Creases brow)
Maaaaaaaaaaaaan.Is there some IT pro out there roaming the streets who happen to know whats happening?
Grrr.
I can write alot of stories about my ancient laptop and me.
Darn.Annoying.

2008-04-29T11:27:00.000+08:00

I almost died in the freezing hall.(almost!)
My fingers turned purple ):
Poor me.
Bad air-con!
Huai dan.
Bad egg.
How can it bear to let me freeze like that..
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To do:
1)Pass Irene her present.
2)Study Emath test
3)Feed my imaginary dog.
4)Pack up my room
5)Go to sleep now(Replenish energy)

2008-04-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

WARNING:Laughing could be a misery
(And a big big one at that)
Aye, thats what detective Jolin found out today.(Waves gun)
And the cause of this laughing misery is Marcus.

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Have you ever laugh so hard you feel as if you're gonna just die?
5 whole minutes of continuous(Not continual btw) laughing CAN kill.
I tried to stop laughing, to surpress the laughter inside(I really tried!) And my, you have no idea how that hurt ):
My cheeks felt the pain man! But worse of all was my stomach (Shivers at the thought)
There was even a point of time I couldnt breathe. (Wait, this sounds abit like when Isabella meets Edward Cullen-She forgot to breathe) Dang. Marcus is hilarious.
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Yvonne must had felt the pain in the tummy too.Poor her.Poor me. Poor us ): Now I understand why some people die on the spot after they strike Toto.Consider yourself lucky by not being one of the evil Toto's victims.

OH YA! For a good laugh, go to this website.Dont press any of the link though, just scrll down until u see all the funny facts! Enjoy!http://www.armenianteens.com/funny_crazy_facts.php
天使就在我眼前(:

2008-04-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

rooooooooooooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
I'm a tiger, and I eat little children.
So you better stay well away when I get mad.
And you better not be the cause of my madness.

2008-04-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

Lets make your life(and the people around you) easier...
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1) When in doubt, look intelligent.
2) Say sorry, and mean it.
3) Dont be stingy with compliments
4) Smile when you arent talking.
5) Open your ears before your mouth.
6) Share what you have with others.
7) Show concern to those whom you really care when theyre still around.
8) Dont bear grudges. Forgive, but dont forget.
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I believe tml will be a better day for you.

2008-04-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

Today is homecoming day! Dont know why I am so high today lol.
But oh well...
Anyway the dunking machine dunked our priciple and VPs. Ouch, but what a sight to behold! Oh ya, and Mr chan weijie came for homecoming and didnt tell me about it ): Grr. But whatever la, nice to see him anyway. (But he left so early.) Our stall raised quite alot I think. And I spent all my coupons on like what? 6 cheese sausages 4 honeyed cornflakes 3 whatever and some random stuff. (I just found out I still have some homecoming coupons.wow) After that went to PS with elaine. And now my leg ache like hell can? Anyway it was nice to go out with her again.Talked, walked, find teddies, yada yada.Time flies when I'm with her. And now, i think i stink, and therefore i need to bathe.

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Oh ya, and before I forget, I want to mention that Mr Foo is very nice and observant! Today he asked if was ok.Hey like only he found out that there was something wrong luh.

2008-04-08T21:00:00.000+08:00

I know its late, but I feel an obligation to thank:
Zhirong, Germaine, Yiying, Priscilla, Kaiyun, Sherry, Elaine, Hidaya, Shona, Sherilyn, Shihui, June, Angeline, Mavis, Xingzi, Debbie and gang, Kiat Han, Felicia and the wonderful flute section: Sharlene, Irene, Esther, Joey, Yongjie, Kaiwai.
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for the wonderful presents, and for making Xinfony such a memorable day for me.
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Special people to mention:
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Germaine and Zhirong, always coming back to Xinmin despite their busy JC schedule and always bringing things for us.
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My section mates.Now you can really call this a great section with them around. We have the loveliest and cutest bunch of juniors who are like soo cute, its hard not to smile. We have like the best section leader too!
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Elaine. Thanks for everything. I couldnt ask for more, when I have a friend like you.(Oh, I know you know how I feel! Winks) You're more than just a best friend.

2008-04-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

The articles on food distribution and famine gave me quite alot to think about. So many highly controvesial motions, and the debating parties-The world itself.
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I support democracy, but now I'm starting to see the downsides to it, Oh the failures of democracy! But I must mention that the politics pertaining to the matter is seriously flabbergastingly interesting. If there was a subject called politics, it must be truly interesting (Well it is interesting in itself.The various parties just sort of adds on to the interesting part) Well FYI but the interesting part is kind of inhumane and dangerous.
Scruputulous,Yes I think I found the right word.
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Talk about democracy-How it so concentrates on the benefits, the importance of the individual that in the horrible system, the rich neglects the poor. This system encourages the individual to choose(And yes I mean choose) to be degraded to the status of an animal.
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Geesh pardon me but I was swearing when I read about how those corrupted nations reacted to the Famine in the African regions. Like they totaaly ignored? Because of the fact that it does not support some old-hag 'super' theory that they must get some benefits in one way or another before lending a helping hand out to their fellow homo sapiens? Puh-lese.
For heaven's sake, I cant see any logic here except that it is a major major failure of Capitalism.
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Ok fine.I'm hyped-up. But hey (Waves hand in a frenzy manner), you would be, too , if you saw those images of the starving, pleading in their barely-audible voices to take them to the promised land. And then, following those images, some wealthy fatty asshole sitting on a too-small-for-him-seems-like-his-butt-is-stuck-on-it armchair saying that he will "look into the matter if his situation permits him to yada yada" and then finally adds on "We need more time.Such issues are hard to handle, especially when we have more urgent issues at hand''. HAHA(Scoffs, rolls eyes)
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Well, I dont know about you, but I sure want to shred that couch potato into something lesser than your normal Macdonalds Fries. Consider Communism, someday.

2008-03-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

Have you spent a little moment today staring up at the sky, appreciating its gorgeous beauty and then thinking what a wonderful and splendid place you are living in? Cause there lies perfection, you'll see.

I did.And that feeling...is indeed...perfect.Define perfect.I just did.

2008-03-21T18:18:00.000+08:00

因为天空好美
云朵好美
海浪多美
都不比人心美
人, 心... 如此的美
美得我好想哭
我...不想做例外

爱你多过蓝天白云,爱你多过爱自己, 我觉得...
你好幸福(:
太幸福了.
所以...
我好妒嫉.

2008-03-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

Felt really really tired the whole day today.(Because of Melizo) It was quite bad, to the extent of...erm...sleeping on the sofa at the back of class before CCA. Ya I thought that was unglam enough so...

Have no idea why my camera just doesnt want to upload the photos ): Its like sad cos I think i look pretty in them. Like Geesh... Anyway, went to Melizo yesterday with Kenneth. The Beauty and the Beast Musical is like nice but quite short... Overall it was okay la.
Went to scrapbooking shop to buy something for the juniors ha.

Had debate today(: And band. It was fun! It was the first time I was reading the score West side Story and I gt all the notes in the music right (Like so unlike me?) haha. Whateverr.

And now I guess I should bathe cause I think I stink.
And then have a sweet dream. I am really deprived of nice things these day.
For one, sleeping. For another, ...Money?

Note to self: Be a nerd during the weekend.

2008-03-17T22:29:00.000+08:00

That a hero lies in you ^^

2008-03-16T11:29:00.000+08:00

Went to Weijie's commisioning parade yesterday.
Random picts:

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This is cool. Blessing from the diff religions.

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Sword of honour by some minister?

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Congrats(:

2008-03-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

The dog looks innocent(I know)
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Jamie advertising for Darlie toothpaste

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Then we played dress up!

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Jamie-The Egyptian godness (covering her pimple)

Cheryl-The...Flower?
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Me-The failed attempt to be a rockchick.
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Jamie-Lolita Punk! (emo version)

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Jamie looks a bit like Paul Two-Hill with the side parting...

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This last pict is like so cool

Cos i am the phtographer haha

(I told jamie to pose like this!!)

Looks angelic.Cool hur?
(Actually theres one very very cool pict of cheryl but she didnt send me)

2008-03-14T16:07:00.000+08:00

I am at Jamie's hse nw...
I SERIOUSLY hate Jamie's dog.
You know what that dog did?!?!
It kept rubbing its dick on my jeans !"£$%^&*
It was like masterbating.
Like wtf. wtf wtf.
I tried to run, but the dog was faster.
And Jamie and Cheryl were like laughing luh. Talk about friends Grr.
Plus it is not toilet trained. It was like pee-ing all over the place.

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Stupid jamie.She didnt tell me that jeans made her dog horny :(
And its like my brand new jeans >____________________<

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I hate the brownie.
He is so so not cute.
He is so horny.

Eeew I wonder if he left sperms..
omg......... I HATE THE DOG

2008-03-11T19:06:00.000+08:00

Hee band the whole day. Suprisingly it was enjoyable!!
Esp Sectionals taken by nigel(Cos hes like praising the flute section like LOL)

Rained very heavily today.
The whole flute section was like stranded in Hougang point.
We had to get bk to school for band.
In the end everyone ran in the rain except me and Irene
We wanted to take cab at first, but I came up with a better plan.
I thought of asking ppl to like share umbrella with us.
So I asked a VJC guy who was happening to open his umbrella
Irene thinks hes handsome TSK TSK.
She thinks I am cool to ask him.
I think hes sporty and cute.

In an attempt to get under the umbrella, Irene kept on pushing me so I keep bumping into him, so he has no umbrella cover!
Haha and he was nice also la
He held the umbrella for us and he got soaked!
(Sheesh guys learn from him luh, thats the gentleman!)
:D
Gnna have dinner so byeee.

2008-03-10T10:10:00.001+08:00

Its never how GOOD you are, its how BAD you want it.
(And I know that I want it bad enough)

March holidays require more time in school than usual schooldays with all its Extra supplementary lessons and Band.& they claim its a holiday.How ironic.

(Note:Band includes 2 Band practices which is at least 3 hrs++,
2 sectionals which must be at least 3 hrs,
1/2 (i cant rmb) self practice.)

I could do so much in those hours "/
hvzfpoiuytrewq

2008-03-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

Just drank 3 yakult. Love it! I'm gnna get one more from the fridge. Ok back to work!
我坚信皇天不负苦心人 (:

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Ok all the very very best to you, jia you.
Let everything I do be worth !

2008-03-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

Oh go to hell Jolin.(And dont bloody attract attention in the process)
What is the purpose of this shitty blog?
Arent blogs suppose to express one's truest feelings and emotions?
But Why arent I doing it?
Why do I fail in what ought to be such a simple thing?

I am sorry, my dear blog.
I truly am.
What have I been using you for,these past few months?
Used you for telling things that arent really affecting me alot...
What side of me am I showing?
That I am like such a person with a lovely life who loves the world,
a person without any problems,
a girl who love the skies and sun and moon and flowers and birds,
a person who loves herself and everything around,
a motivated person who wants her As badly?
wow.How angelic.
Those missing elements-The things that truly affect me,
Why do I push the things that affect me the most aside and assume everything is ok?
Why?
Am I afraid that the world would know how much of a coward I actually am?
Why do I want to please everyone so much, when I know I hardly can?
Why do I change myself for others?
Why do I make my life so difficult?
Why?
Why do I hide my feelings, and show that I am happy when I am not?
Why am I such a sucker?
Damn.

Oh great.
Why do I love myself at times and hate myself so much at others?
Let me answer all the question marks in this post.
Good luck. I guess its tougher than scoring 9A1s.
And still, I ask myself Why.
Sometimes I feel void of everything,
I feel numbness, nothingness
and I wonder if that is because I am lonely.
Luckily its only that half an hour,
but still half an hour everyday adds up, you see
half an hour everyday, same time same place
That half an hour everyday is always the slowest to pass,
although others think that it passes fast.
You are a great friend in every way,
but sometimes just a little little bit insensitive..

But still, I am glad that its only half an hour,
and that I have you as my friend.
Although there is this feeling of loneliness when you are with that other person.

2008-03-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

Theres this voice in my head.
Its humming, singing, singing a soft yet lovely tune.
I smile when I hear it. I smile.
But then, another voice comes in to take over its place..
Its crying, sobbing, silently...
I never fail to wonder who that is from...
...........Me?
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It ought not be, I thought.
This person certainly needs help,
needs care,
needs utmost love
from anyone...
Why wont that someone be me?
I will help this person, I thought.
But then, there came other wailing voices..
so many of these voices,
I stumble.
How could I possibly help all of them?
But I try.
I really try.
I see, the horizon.
The others...
How they are not trying to help,
even when they could...
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Maybe I just cannot bring myself not to care like the rest.
This feeling that me not being there for them..It just kills my soul
But then,
even when I came to help the rest,
sometimes I stop to reflect,
what I've done.
Yet sometimes even the hero may break down,
but who's there to help me?
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Most times, I just treat things like they never happen
And keep smiling,
for the rest...
But it hurts inside...
Because I am not feeling that way.
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Why do I deceive myself so,
when the whole world is laughing at my stupidity?
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Sometimes I wonder,
if all is worth much,
will others appreciate the little things I do for them?
They dont show it, I know.
But maybe deep down inside,
deep deep down inside,
they may feel my love for each and every single one of them,
even if I dont say it out loud.
Actions speaks louder than words.
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I do what I can,
and hope.
hope people feel the care,
when their world seems to be breaking apart
And I try hard to feel the care, too.
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If they just knew,
how much I truly cared...

2008-03-05T18:41:00.000+08:00

I feel like slacking today, so I slacked.

Happy with myself, scored full marks for both of my differentiation test...

Think I getting another full marks for the last maths test(: Hohoho

Ok i think i will go Melizo hee.So u choir ppl better come for Xinfony lol.

ahh whatever. March holidays isnt really holidays, gotta come bk for extra lessons and band, so monday-friday still gg back sch.

omg and i hate the new friendster uploading photos system.Cant upload de lo.Sry this is a boring post cos i m feeling boring today.

So I think I should like...end your misery and end this post.(with a photo ha)

Nice right?! I dont know why I look so good in photos and so bad in real life lol. Probably cos I'm whiter here.hmm. Zzzz, i wish i am pretty like this girl in the photo(: (Shes my idol luh)

2008-03-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

LOL just found out the interview with the omy team is on the web(The omy newspaper website) haha. Anyway, for those who are oblivious, and those other Xinmin people who want to see their face on the net, and and and for the rest who want to see me me me (I am the first one! I didnt look as bad as I thought I would, but bad enough i think)
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Go to this linkk: Jolin sounds great on camera(:
(Please be patient and wait for the video to buffer...cos...Theres me and its worth the wait, even though its a mere -insert no- seconds)
Just click view vodcast and then view the thingy.

2008-02-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

Grr, my sore throat is a killer.
And I keep thinking I have a sexy/manly/husky voice(Like eww) and it kind of make me not want to talk.(But msn is ok)
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Haha what happened today. SL investiture thingy, they look so so good in those blazers. Oh suddenly *with a wave of my magic magic wand, they all turned into prince charmings! haha.Ok nvm me but i did sms them to compliment them and tell them how good they look ok?!
(And boy werent they thrilled! Its not every other day I complimented someone ha)
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E learning day tmr(: which means no school. which means can go out.
Ok whateverr.So we decided on ajisen hur? Hey will the spicy food worsen my voice?
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Today I am happy. (Like always, only happier)
Hope everyday can be like today. My, this suree is good. Ahhh I love him.

2008-02-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

Tell me what this is all about.
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When a teacher gives homework, (eg chi compo) my brains go YAY i can impress the teacher with my superb writing skills(Or so i claim) and Im like so gonna do it
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When a teacher gives a test I go YAY This test can drive me further as it forces me to do notes and check whether my studying techniques are right
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When I'm at home, my eyes turn greedily towards the pile of books. They go YAY This will be a productive day, I m getting one step closer to my 8As!
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Tell me about positive attitudes( I think i am over-confident *scorns)
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When a teacher says he will set a hard test, I go SUPER YAY! This is a challenge man, and if i cant do it no one can (Oh tell me aah-bout being over confident) How hard can a paper gt?
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My dad gts pretty frustated(really) He asks if i'm alright lol. I reject gg out for family outings (Ya even if they were gg to Swensens, trying to tempt me)
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My brain wont rest unless it eats some knowledge. Feeding it with knowledge is a sucky task cos its a glutton.
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Tell me about O lvls.(I cant wait)

But Of course i dont forget leisure too
Cant wait for nxt tues-Section outing-Commonwealth concert, New york/ajinsan/Pepper lunch/fish and co/sakae sushi/Ichiban sushi(Ok we haven really decided) (My section is a lovable bunch)
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Nxt wed-Sakae sushi with cheryl(:
(Pray that my sore throat gts better)
And Wanting's The last vampire bk is nicee la. But i still like Edward.Ok, correction I love him like hell.

2008-02-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

The troops are complaining, or rather crying in despair,as they seemed so now. They had not eaten for a whole full 2 days now.It is a scarily tough battle, the toughest they had faced so far.The mighty General tried hard not to look worry in front of the troops.She barely passed. "There is still hope my friends, all is not lost,I'll just have to think up another plan."

A civil war is raging...People are unhappy, unhappy with the Mighty General Jolin, the one who was supposedly (then) be technically, physically, mentally-able to withstand war.But now, they were no longer as certain.

Maybe there was a need for a treaty. and soon.What did the future hold?

2008-02-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

Oh dammit. Feels and seems like I'm waiting for some rust to grow on my chair.Its getting comfortable by the way.Or some weeds to grow with those crop yields.Or a pig to accompany me, or a fly to fly past and say hello.Or maybe it is.I've blown so many fake bubbles of excuses to continue waiting from 9 plus to 11 plus and yada yadada.Ya i was right about the face stalking part.Is there some way, a navigate button maybe. Its like waiting for the sea to turn bright hot pink or waiting for some ratty-naggy teacher to finish their lectures.One of those weary moments, yet time ticks so slowly. Or a unicorniphide(no such word, dont bother the dictionary) Now, i miss the warm feeling in the gullet down my stomach.It goes whoosh and ahh. I miss the whisky.
Drowsy and sleepy, but its like the most important day of the year(Or so I thought) Maybe the alarm will ring, and someone will tell me I'm sleepy sleepy in a dream.Maybe I will rust, of powder cream and pepper, and cornflakes(Honeyed butter ones)and sugar and ice and tea.Boo at the arriving of Twilight, i wished it was earlier. I wished you were earlier.For the weeds to grow, aye aye. I get it now, finally.Will i regret this? I think so but i hope not.(i really hope not) Its like one of those many things that happen in the world, only once.

2008-02-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

RAWRR.Happy valentines day everybody (: !!
405 did 2 super creative cards for our beloved Mr ang and Mr lim!

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Haha me and cheryl made honeyed butter cornflakes for everyone in the class. Hoho everyone must thank us tomorrow!
(Ohh and i cant wait for the pretty pretty bright GReeeN balloon stuffed with sweets from darling cheryl.)

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I was so happy today, i did balloons stuffed with sweets for elaine, sharlene, cheryl, renata and...
(Thanks for the rose in advance!)
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Happy valentines to everyone! Jolin rocks big time.
Okay, now just wish really really really hard that he comes online.

2008-02-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

Found these on the web (I was doing hist research)

Joseph Stalin,when he was 24.

Ya he dont look like him in the textbk

Did I see the word emo on the Tee Hitler is wearing?

2008-02-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

CNY was FUN FUN FUN(:

Played Wii till my right arm ached (I was so good, i beat all my cousins, including the one who owned the Wii)

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Gambled abit, (and lost)
And yet they claim: The biggest failure in life is not participating

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Drank red wine, Baileys whisky and bacardi, (and got drunk)
Thankfully I didnt say anyth stupid/nonsensical, just felt floaty and very very warm, and i couldnt walk straight.

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But however, my uncle was drunk.One moment he was singing love songs to his wife and the next, he was kneeling in front of other people(and holding their hands) and complaining that his life was terrible. Freaky. (I remembered i siam far far) lol

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Stayed overnight at cuzzie's hse too :D
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Let us reach out for, our dreams out there.
Boy, arent you nice :D (I would have wished for another of those moments, you see)

2008-02-07T02:14:00.000+08:00

You Are Destined to Rule the World

You have the makings of a very evil dictator...
Which is both kind of cool and kind of scary!
Will you rule the world? Maybe. Maybe not.
But at least you know that you could.

Are You Destined For World Domination?

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 92%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is Very High

You've spent a lot of time introspecting, and it's really paid off.
You are comfortable with who you are, and you have a life philosophy that you are happy to live by.
And you're always re-evaluating what you believe. Because you learn something new about yourself each day!

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

The Recipe For jolin

3 parts Giddiness
2 parts Warmth
1 part Enchantment

Splash of Dignity

Serve over ice

What's the Recipe for Your Personality?

What Your White Outfit Means

You're a natural beauty - and you never let your fashion steal the show.
You have a quiet confidence that you'll look great in almost anything.
While you may feel understated, men are attracted to your mystery.

Designer match: Gucci

Signature accessory: A cashmere scarf

How Your Favorite Outfit Tells What Kind of Girl You Are

HAPPY CNY!

2008-02-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

You Are From Pluto

You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe.
You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart.
You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance.
You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness.
Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you.

What Planet Are You From?

LOL as if pluto is a planet...

You Are 52% Weirdo

You're definitely quite strange, but you can act like a normal person when you have to.
(But just because you can act normally, it certainly doesn't mean you want to!)
You have normal aspects to your personality... but you usually don't choose to emphasize them.

Are You A Weirdo?

Ohhh and try this quiz!

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoyoureallythinkofyourfriendsquiz/?newleftcolumn=yes&order=3
(Its damn cool! But the results must remain a secret heee)

2008-02-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

MY 100th post!

I am wondering...what it would be like if you were my best friend? How would it be like? I would love life even more i guess.And feel as if I am the luckiest girl on this heavenly planet.

Oh I can feel my heart melting just thinking about it.

我无法只是普通朋友。害羞得我，怎么告诉你呢？

2008-01-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Fire

You are intense, internally driven, and passionate.
Your emotions are unpredictable - and they often get the better of you.
Both radiant and terrifying, people are drawn to you.
At your most powerful, you feel like the world belongs to you.

Why you would be a good superhero: You are obsessive enough to give it your all

Your biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers

What Should Your Superpower Be?

You Are An INFJ

The Protector

You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.

In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow.
You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation.

At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful

When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

What's Your Personality Type?

2008-01-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

I'm pondering still, over that little little dream
Oh, if it could replay, only if it would
I promise I'll take a closer look at that pretty pretty face
Do I like you, or the shadow in my dream?
A nasty sweet illusion, one I've grown so terribly used to
That obscure you, always one I come to love yet hate so much, too much...

Everything begins with a dream, like a dream
I wonder if it does end as a dream...

What if I say I like you? D:
-Jolin. Emo today ):

2008-01-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

I told cheryl i wont blog about this, but oh well...

So i got my first a1 (Chi) :D
Haha and you people must must come for xinfony VIII and buy the tickets from me!
RAWR! cos i am graduating and u might as well come to support me(:

PS/ yes dearest, it must be the apple. Thanks so much <33

2008-01-23T12:33:00.000+08:00

Haha now in com lab.Mr wong let us do anyth we want!(Cos i finished the assignment ytd)
Hmm. So tml getting back o lvl chienese results...Wish me luck, ppl (:

PS and its still a mystery why girls like me(and pearlene) falls in love with fictional characters like Edward:/
(Can anyone buy the book 'eclipse' by Stephenie Meyer for me? :x)
PPS I am going to spam msgs tonite to remind ppl abt the o lvl results coming out tml.(Make suree they have a PEACEFUL sleep)
PPPS Forget about my hair, i can melt hearts just with my smile :D

Logging off with truckloads of love,
JOLIN.

2008-01-18T13:54:00.000+08:00

So they say...the difference between man and woman...

Rawr.. I like those clouds that block off the sunlight(:

Ok should i cut my hair short? i went round school asking this question.

Alot of the people say no.They say i'll regret it. But whatever la i still want to cut my hair, SHORT(: People should change their image once in a while, plus i so super hate my hair now.Geee.

(Elaine, is this font better?I cant find Tahoma lol)

A smile can make anyone's day, especially mine, so heres a smile for you, hope you have a pleasant day ahead.Remember Jolin's long hair alright? (:

2008-01-16T17:36:00.000+08:00

The closer you get to someone, the more you will realise that that someone isnt actually really as close to you as you think.

Thats a fact i learnt.

Maybe i try too hard to care for everyone else...

2008-01-16T17:23:00.000+08:00

Grrr. I cant stand me.I am like super ugly now, partly cos of my hair.its like a sucky little thingy..
k what happened...
1) School is nt boring bcos of the air-con.
2) The biggest,happiest news-I am nt the class chairman anymoree!!
3) Daddy bought that book for me:D Ha i can fall in love with my vampire agn lol.
4) I think the other vampire chronicles suck. I dont think i can even finish my current one 'merrick'. Guess what? The vampire in that story is gay ><
5) I am so gonna solve my rubric scale someday...Those little colured boxes...Its a mystery why the same colours dont come together to have a talk.
6) I wan SRR(or isit SSR) oh watever i just want it.

'Petals of the new moon,oh! How they cry,how they cry...'
No,thee little fool,cant you see, cant you see?
Those are not dewdrops,those are blood... Blood for the vampire,from the poor
,poor little missy's soul...

Petals of the new moon, oh! How they cry, how they cry...

2008-01-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Beautiful things happen all around the world.
The problem lies in the person, its just whether he/she's sensitive enough to notice them (:

Superteen rocks :D
I like the trainers.
I also like my other diary, the one hand-written.

2008-01-04T13:26:00.001+08:00

Erm this sucks.I lost my wallet and now i have ugly ugly swollen eyes.
So on monday hav superteen workshop....its so ex la $150. Piangz.
Hmm whats more... This year theres banding.. gt in band 1 for english and band 2 for hmt. :D & i think ms tee is a really good teacher. Her speech certainly motivates people lo. Haha ok i must go sleep now..so that i can study later :D
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是我做错了什么，让天使伤心？

2007-12-31T13:07:00.000+08:00

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwww

I met a sick sick flasher jus now :(
:(
:(

2007-12-30T20:07:00.000+08:00

3 more days to school...
Is that a happy thing? Hmm.
K so i'll turn ito a study freak/nerd/no life idiot next year hohoho.

But for the first few days i'll be alone and bored stiff..
Guess what? I have to wait till bro's orientation programme after each day and accompany him home.wow.

I'll sign off now.No substance in my head to write abt anyth.hah.

&...

I seriously love this song(:

2007-12-24T08:09:00.000+08:00

Recent things:

1) Celebrated Baby Gwen's bdae.
2) Brother gt into Xinmin.
3) Christmas party @ cousin's hse.
4) Went to ate Dian Xiao Er.Super niceee.
5) Daddy's car gt smashed..Now hes driving a Toyota for the time being.
6) A dog bit my leg and left teethmarks.
7) I just found out that stairways to heaven is showing agn!
Sunday 2- 4pm :DDDDDDDDDD
8) biao ge's wedding today(:

Role of the week:Daddy's little girl.
Function: Do housework and maths and maths ):

Part time role: Cereal killer
Function: Finish up all the poor little oreo Os before they expire in about another week's time...

2007-12-14T13:52:00.000+08:00

Chalet was boring._____.

And i still cant believe some stranger called me auntie laaa !@#$%^@#! Its saddening la wlao. (PS i call aunties xiao jie lo)

Shades are love! (Picts were taken in aus,while waiting for the slow coach to arrive)

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What happens when crazy people come together.